Here is a picture of my reality …

Every morning I wake up with gratitude, wash my face and brush my teeth, usually one or both of my boys have screamed more than once. we do breakfast and lunches if I didn't do them the day before. Always there is resistance to some actions: eating, brushing teeth, getting coats and shoes on. we get to school most days on time. I come home clean up and get to work ..

I've taken the time to plan my week and I set to moving the needle a little bit during the hours of 8-10. Then I move my body, make + have a green smoothie + supplements and get Owen. Then the real work begins. The hard, challenging, maddening, learning, amazement begins. The real work is putting into practice what I believe in - what I say I believe in and letting myself life be testament. I have a long way to go.

Nate comes home for lunch and I prep dinner. I clean up, and up and up. Owen and me, and maybe a friend, another mama, tired like me but happy to have a friend comes over. Some phone calls, texts, posts. Some days I have to meet The Duchenne Dragon head on in the form of setting up medication delivery, making appointments, communicating with doctors and nurses, insurance companies and county services and iep conversations with the staff of teachers at school. We pick up B in the Burley trailer, going in early to help B with his things, navigating this necessary piece of gear to get him from here to there through a channel of children if O refuses to put on his shoes and coat or has to go potty two more times and we're late. Then its home, snack, study, screen time. Then while I'm making dinner daddy comes home, the dog starts barking wildly and the kids start screaming. I try to get everyone to the table and maybe someone helps setting the table but most days it's done before anyone hears my request. Dinner which is healthy and home cooked, is mostly received with a yuck (it could be ice cream and they might say yuck). We say Grace and give thanks and eat (or not eat), I clean up, boys start screaming again, N plays with the dog then spends time on his phone. Bedtime ritual starts with me going to the boys room and turning on their diffuser, turning down their sweet little beds prompting choosing tomorrow's clothes + jammies + wash face/bath + teeth. Calmer goes onto feet, up spines and into hands for 3 deep breaths + story + check in + snuggles before they fall asleep.

I take a deep breath, sit down, connect with Nate, watch a show. Make a cup of tea + magnesium, turn on my diffuser, take care of my skin, every few nights a skip shows and take a bath instead, get into bed with a book, sign my tea, take a Serenity softgel, rub oils on my feet, sandalwood into my palms and take three deep breathes and ask the Dreamaker to reveal something to me in my dreams, before I fall asleep. Some nights I stay up late dreaming and prepping and writing, working on my business and remembering what i do this for + what is most important.

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I share all this, why?

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Because I am getting real with myself and choosing to see it and to understand that I am also choosing out of this with the work I do from 8-10am every weekday morning.

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The future I believe in is super duper happy, I am not super duper happy everyday and listen, I don't have to be ... You don't have to be where you want to be to start sharing the truth of what you believe.

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There isn't an arrival point. Evolution is happening continuously. There is a messy middle and that's where I am. Am I 100% ok with it 100% of the time. No, but .. I am 1000% ok with that.

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I believe that I have a toolset + skillset + this opportunity with doTERRA is giving me the mindset to create a reality of my choice with the resources that are right in front of me.

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You can make whatever decision you want. I can't roll the oils on you, or put the supplements in your gut or cleanse your body, house, mind and spirit, get you to mat or to move your body or to change your habits.

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I can only be a Lighthouse. Shining my Light, the Light that can not hide under circumstance or attitude or emotion or imperfection. Because it is part of me. It is part of you.

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So I'm going be right here, cultivating rituals that make a difference in my own life. Following through on the actions I've set that will move me in the direction of my dreams. And share.

I am absolutely lit up LIT UP! by the idea of witnessing you do the same. I am so excited to see what you will do.

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We all start somewhere.